Moleskine Pages- ' Rroids

I don't think this needs a lot of explanation, so I'll just leave you with the image.  With only four pages remaining on my current Moleskine, I am seriously considering an alternative sketchbook to work in. I simply can't get my head round paying £14 per book, it's extortion!

Moleskine Pages- Crying

I cried hoping someone would come running to soothe me better. Mum, believed crying was good for a baby's lungs. My lungs are fine now.

Moleskine Pages- Little People

When we ran for cover, the only cover was brutal with a stony breast and an evil eye. Why we didn't fight back is a short story; short without sweetness. Common, sad and boring; we were the little people.

Moleskine pages - The Birthday Present (The Abortion)

Sad but true, notice just how elated she is!

Moleskine pages - Smoke Got In Her Eyes

There are certain things we cling onto just to remain, or feel we are still human. And in the midst of the almost unendurable we put one foot ahead of the other and carry on. Not because we are brave or heroic, but because we are hard wired to do so. Nature has decreed that we must continue, and so we do!

Moleskine Pages - A Stitch In Time

This image is about my need to take responsibility for everyone's wellbeing. I need to make sure everything is perfect and everyone is happy. It may be a mother thing, a woman thing or just a glutton for punishment thing because with the best will in the world, nothing is ever perfect,  and not everyone is always happy. Anyway who is taking care of me?

Moleskine Pages - You're Forever Home

Nothing Special

A Work in progress, This has away to go yet. A3 on Illustration Board

Moleskine Diary Pages Nov 2011 - Crying Was A Viable Sport

A possible competitor for Pop Idol? Is there a way that hasn't been used to attain fame? This is the obvious meaning but what is the mother doing here? Why can't she stay the hell out of my work?

More pages

This is about some screwed up family dynamic that I haven't quite worked out yet. Something to do with jealousy, lack of trust and power games played by grown ups. This really is a well that never runs dry!

More Moleskine pages (older ones)

I have a backlog of over 36 completed Moleskine sketchbooks thus far, and they are the only part of my work that is not for sale. Too much time , blood, sweat..blah blah goes into them and it makes it impossible to put a price on them. I do enjoy looking through them now and again, and I am always surprised by how completely I forget what I've done. It's as if they were someone Else's work and words. I did say I'd post some older pages and this is what this  is about.

Certain events in my life messed with my head and forced me to question the fundamentals of good and evil, right and wrong. It also turned me away from rigid inflexible dogma that allows people to set themselves up as judge and jury. To decide who lives and who dies and why.

This depicts some complex feelings about being a girl child in a place that favoured little princes. Of having to steal enough of the spotlight to see me through. Apparently the lack of a penis rendered me unworthy. Funny that!

These images touch on some very deep emotional subjects about my life. There are complex back-stories to each of them. I'd be happy to answer any questions you may have.

Moleskine drawing for planned doll.

This is my drawing for my current work in progress. I bought a pattern from Ebay for premature babies staring from 12 weeks gestation right up to 28 weeks. i am making an old fashioned hand made sanitary towel complete with pins as a bed for the tiny little 'would have been' life. It is intended as a loving commemoration of every baby that couldn't fulfill his or her potential for whatever reason.